1. People call it passion.  Or lust.  Or obsession.  I don't really care.  When I'm with him, it's the only time I feel completey alive.  If you've never felt the power of that, then I feel sorry for you.

2. When you look at a person, any person, remember that everyone has a story.  Everyone has gone through something that has changed them

3. Because you're hoping you're wrong.  And everytime he does something that tells you he's no good, you ignore it.  And everytime he comes through and surprises you, he wins you over, and you lose that argument with yourself, that he's not for you.

4. As we were sitting there, I turned to him and asked, "How do you know you're in love?"  He just looked at me and answered, "You know it's love when the things that seem insignificant to most people seem incredible and magnificent to you.  Kind of like the way the corners of your eyes crinkle when you're thinking... and that littlest thing is enough to take my breath away.  That's love."

5. So tell me what you want,
because I would give you everything.

6. And then he hits you with that one last promise & you want it to be the truth so bad. You're looking in his eyes & you're crying, saying, "He's not lying." But you know he is.

7. And everytime you speak her name
does she know how you told me
you'd hold me until you died, but you're still alive.
And I'm here to remind you of the mess
you left when you went away.
It was a slap in the face,how quickly I was replaced

8. always and forever. that's what sucks.
i always will. i just can't trust you.
       -one tree hill

9. Love can't always be perfect.
Love is just love.
-- Wedding Planner

10. A woman is often measured by the things she cannot
control. She is measured by the way her body curves
or doesn't curve, by where she is flat or straight or
round. She is measured by 36-24-36 and inches &
ages and numbers, by all the outside things that
don't ever add up to who she is on the inside. And so
if a woman is to be measured, let her be measured
by the things she can control; by who she is & who
she is trying to become. Because as every woman
knows, measurements are only statistics & statistics lie.

11. And sometimes it isn't. Some people expect things to fall into their lap. Oh, they might work a bit for it. I'll just shake that tree, & if I shake it long enough that pretty red apple will plop right into my hand. Never occurs to them that they might have to climb the damn tree, fall out a couple of times, get some scrapes & bruises before they get to that apple. Because if the apple's worth wanting, it's worth risking a broken neck.

12. if this is what you want, i'm fine with that.
but please don't ever come back.
you had your chance.

13. we'll lie awake, staring
at the sky, my hand touching
yours & yours touching mine.

14. i love that after i spend a day with you,i can still smell your cologne on my clothes.i love that you are the last person i want to talk to before i go to sleep at night. it's not because i'm lonely,it is because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with someone,you want the rest of your life to start soon as possible.

15.And when we're together,
we're too good for the world.

16. why do people think it's okay
for them to do horrible things
to other people as long as they
apologize afterwards?

17. i'm safe when i'm with you.
i just feel the security surround me,
like a magic coat.

18. so let it be just you and me tonight;
tangled up in each other's arms,
with fireworks exploding in our hearts.

19. my heart smiled when you kissed me.

20. your life can change in a second or two,
that's how i felt when i met you

20 quotes girls.

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1. i guess you're proof that when
you finally let go of the past,
something better comes along.

2. at this point i would so much rather have
a few good friends than a lot of fake friends.
-the hills. 

3. The people who suffer the most are those who don’t know what they want.

4. 'Cause since you've been gone
I've been begging you please
To tell me you're not alright
and you needed to come home
Since you've been gone
To tell me you're not okay
and you needed me all along
Since you've been gone
-theory of a deadman.

5. No matter how hard you try to get over someone, you will still have some sort of feeling for them, remembering the ways things used to be, and how they are now. And you sometimes hope that the new person in their life was still you, and everything was how it used be, erasing all the bad things that happened. Time is supposed to make things better, but in love it doesn't. Although we have been apart for a while, and now have different loves in our life, I still can't help wondering how your life is, and when I catch you glancing at me, I can't help but wonder if your heart beats a little faster, as mine does when I see you.

6. just promise me. that's all i want.
just a promise that you'll never forget me.
tell me i changed you somehow,
let me know i had an impact on your life.
promise me you'll always remember me,
it's hard enough watching you walk away,
but i don't want to walk the other way
knowing i meant nothing to you.

7. it's when you can't just sit with him.
you need to feel him, need to feel his
arms around you. when you want everyone
to disappear just so you can be with him.

8. what can i say? im obsessed. and we all know obsessed girls cant be held responsible for their actions

9. Why does everything you do have to make
me smile? Can I not like you for a while...
[ Hate That I Love You ;; Rihanna & Neyo ]

10. I just wanted you to know
you weren't any good anyway.

11. You will miss me.
You will regret this.
And I will laugh.

12. I pity him because I get to walk away and be me,
and he has to stay him, you know? And who wants
to be him when you could be me? I'm smart, I'm
funny. I am "it". I was the magic, the abracadabra.
I was the "poof" in the relationship.

13. Sooner or later you're going to have to learn:
It's not that big of a deal, life goes on, you shouldn't
be crying, don't let them bring you down, he's just an
ass, get up & find someone who makes you happier.

14. Sometimes I ask myself, "Does he really care, or
does he just like to pretend he does so he always
has someone to fall back on when one of those
other girls isn't around?"

15. I'm trying to tell you boy I won't stand for someone
messing on me. No I won't take it, I'm gonna get
even, last thing you wanna see is me leaving. What
goes around comes back around, there's no escaping
karma baby, no you won't like it, you're gonna regret
it, it's gonna hurt you when you least expect it.
[ He Ain't The Only One ;; Melissa Jimenez ]

16. I want something real, something I can touch
and hold onto. A love that makes my heart skip,
and gives me that amazing feeling in the pit
of my stomach. I want forever.

17. See, that's the thing about second chances. It's two people that are there for each other and support each other and care about each other no matter how much they want to deny it. It's about one person doing everything they can to make sure the other doesn't fall and vice-versa. Second chances are about holding on to that other person's hand no matter how hard they to beg to let go.

18. The simple way we roll our eyes
are exactly how we disguise our
secrets. You know you need this.

19. the opposite of love isn't hate, it's indifference.
if you hate someone, you still care.
-desperate housewives

20. Be first in line, raise your hand, remember everything you hear,
and playing in the rain is worth catching cold.
-Michael Tolcher

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If I told you I missed you,
would you miss me?
If I told you I found someone new,
would you even care?

Ive never realized how hard it was to miss someone. Knowing that you finally found someone new, could never heal the pain of missing someone like you.

i shouldn't have dumped him 2 years ago. i garuntee you we'd still be together.

cor te reducit. it means, "the heart leads you back"
it means no matter where you go after you leave this place,
your heart will always lead you back here.
it means there's always a place for you here. and it means
I'll always be here for you, too.

there will come a time where you're infatuated,
with a single soul.
for this person, you'd do anything,
and not think twice about it.
but when asked why,
you have no answer.
you'll try your whole life to understand,
how he can affect you as much as he does.
but you'll never find out,
& no matter how badly you hate it,
or how much it hurts,
you will love this person without regrets,
for the rest of your life .

I'm not waiting on you to call me back anymore,
because I don't need it. I won't waste my days
thinking of you, because you're just bad news.
You gave up too early, you let me down
before I was even off the ground

I've learned that no matter how much I care,
some people are just assholes. I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it. I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others; they are more screwed up than you think. I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon, and all the less important ones just never go away.

& you ask why i havent talked to you, well maybe its because you slowly pushed me out of your life. I'm glad you're finally noticing.

she's the one girl who needs that summer romance the most, but all those boys wont even look at her.

you don't know what you put me through,
But it's okay,
I've forgotten you.
&& in some way,
I hope it fucks with you
To know I'm okay
&& I made it through.

Even if you're on the right track,
you'll get run over if you just stand there.

But lately I've been seeing it differently. Now I think it's about finding that one thing you really care about, that one special thing that means more to you than anything else in the world. And when you find her, you fight for her. You risk it all, you put her in front of everything, your life, all of it. And maybe the stuff you do to help her isn't so clean. You know what? It doesn't matter, because in your heart you know that the juice is worth the squeeze.

Sometimes what I do may seem ignorant & wrong, but I'm sorry if you feel that way. To me life isn't a song; there's no lyrics you can sing to, no paper to lead the way; I can't just look up to the heaven's & figure out what to say. But I can try as hard as possible to live the life I want. I guess I just have to dance to my own beat because life isn't a show & you don't pay for a seat.

I can see myself waking up next to you,
your face being the first thing I see everyday,
with that bed-head hair and that sleepy smile.

We walked to the shore & dipped our feet in the frigid water. We were freezing, but we just wanted to be together. You held my hand & asked if everything was okay. I kissed your cheek and said, "Baby, of course everything's okay when I'm with you."

She loves being with him, it's like she can
finally be herself with him, & that's what
she's been looking for all this time.

shes so pretty but she doesnt always act that way
her moods are swinging on the swing set almost everyday
she said to me that shes so stressed out that its soothing
and all i said was someone get that girl a mood ring.

im happy that you found someone that completes you.
since i couldnt.

thought i'd cry for you forever but i couldn't
so i didn't. people's childrens die and they
don't even cry forever. thought i'd see your
face in my mind all the time but i don't even
remember what your ears looked like.

i wont love you as much as i love him
i wont care about you as much as i care about him
he means more to me than anyone ever will
hes my world; hes my one in five billion .

Because he has been a major part of your life, of course you'll miss him; it's perfectly normal. It's like getting a tooth pulled out; after the dentist pulls it out you're relieved. But how many times does your tongue run itself over the spot where the tooth once was? Probably a hundred times a day. Just because it was hurting you does not mean you don't notice it. It leaves a gap, & sometimes you see yourself missing it terribly. It's going to take awhile, but it takes time. Should you have kept the tooth? No, because it was causing you pain. Pulling the tooth was the right decision, but it's going to hurt.

I just wish people would say what they feel.
Who cares about fucking signals?
This isn't a four way crossing.

You see that girl? The only reason she uses
makeup is to hide that big sign on her
forehead that says "FAKE."

One day, you`ll miss me like hell
& you`ll wish that you never fucked up.
Then you`ll come running back to what
could`ve been yours.. what should`ve
been yours.. but you`ll see that this time
around, I`m the one that`s not gonna give a fuck.

Boy: I'm sorry for all how I used to treat you babe.. I really am.
Girl: It's okay.. I'm sorry I put up with it.

I wish I could make things like they used to be,
except you wouldn`t have so much control over me
& I wouldn`t be so head over heels.

she's getting to you
you're slowly realizing that you don't like
being without her. you're feeling exactly how she did

i'm finally realizing that you're not so wonderful
maybe you're not my everything
maybe you're not my anything
maybe .. just maybe, I don't even need you

As we lay together
a million things run through my head.
As tears come to my eyes
you ask whats wrong and
I hold it all in and say nothing
and you tell me how you love me
I hope that you mean it this time.

it's kind of an interesting
thought when your boyfriend
doesn't tell you that you look
pretty but your guy friends
never forget to.

how do i miss you when youre right there..
well i miss what was and what could of been
i miss everything that you chose to throw away

In our love story,
there may be many commas,
but never a full stop

And don’t ever complain
about growing old,
so many people never
get the chance

i know that i hurt you
& things will never be
the same, the only love
i ever knew i threw it all away

Go ahead, go out with her.
Doesn't phase me a bit.
But don't come crawling back,
Complaining when things
Don't go right for you..
You had your chance with me,
& I'm long over you by now.

if you come running back to me
i'll be here waiting
Cause I still believe in a
love worth saving
- plain white t's

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All I can say is that
I hope our seperate paths
intersect again one day

I've gotta say something, cause I don't think I've
made it clear. I'm in love with you. powerfully,
painfully, in love. the things you do.. the way you think..
the way you move.. I get excited everytime I'm
about to see you. you make me feel like I've never
felt before in my life. I just thought you might
want to know.

And this is my life,
getting dumped with no warning.
Or liking people who don't like me back,
or who don't like me enough,
or not as much as they like someone else.

And I don't want to sound vulnerable..
but you know that I miss you.

After he left her in the car, she cried for a very long time.
It wasn't sadness, exactly. It was more like tears of acceptance.  She knew that she couldn't make him love her the way she  needed to be loved. She couldn't make him feel the things he didn't.

Can you not see how much you hurt me?
I gave you my heart and you threw it on the floor, spit,
and stomped on it. But you know what?
I always will come back for more.
No matter what you say or do to me.
You will always and forever be my first love.
I will never forget you

Cause I'm fighting like hell for you,
and I don't plan on giving up.
All I want is for me and you to be
the way we used to be.

I dont miss you
I miss being loved
I miss someone to talk to
I miss hugs and kisses
I miss the feeling
but I dont miss you

I didn't want to know the truth
I'd rather go on lovin' blind girl
Than go on lovin' without you
-Toby Keith

And I dont understand by the way you look at me,
why we can't be together

Someday, you're gonna wake up,
And wonder what went wrong.
You better kiss me,
Cause you're gonna miss me when im gone.

Only the one that hurts you, can make you feel better.
Only the one who inflicts the pain, can take it away.
-Madonna

Don’t be so hard on yourself. Neither of us ever expected it to go this far. We never expected to find love when we weren't even looking.

i was crying and screaming and trying to push you away
but you just held onto me tighter.
and for the first time in my life, i knew what it felt like to have somebody care

Don't cut me down just yet;
I'll make things right again.

I've never understood the reasoning for someone to "move on" from a relationship. It's not like you are really going to "move on," you are just trying to tell your heart to stop thinking a bout that person every second of every minute of every day until it finally becomes a routine and you don't notice it anymore. That is, until you see that person again, with someone who isn't you, and then you have to remind yourself again.

Maybe one day the sky will be purple, Coach & Louis Vuitton won't cost a single penny, you'll be able to sleep on soaking wet hair & when you wake up it will be perfectly straightened, & love will actually mean something. Yeah, that'll be the day.

Don't count on Forever.
Apparently it got married,
had kids and died happy.

Her: Tell me a secret.
Him: I'm falling for you.
Her: You took my secret <3

Things aren't the same anymore. It feels like I'll never get over you. I can't forget the lies and broken promises you put me through. The lies and promises I believed. Maybe we should stop talking. Maybe we should stop trying to make things better between us. Maybe we just aren't meant for each other, and that's that.

My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away.
But every now and then you come to mind.
You were always waiting to be picked to play the game.
But when your name was called you always found a place to hide.

I think the hardest part about this situation is that neither of us knows what's going on.
Neither of us knows what each other is thinking.
And we're both trying to make decisions based on information we don't know.

There we stood alone you asking what was wrong
"nothing" I replied, I’m just fine
but I wasn't fine knowing you’d go right back to her
I wish you didn’t mean this much to me

where he made me feel on top of the world
I was the world, not only that
I was the sun, the moon, the sky, and all the stars in it
in those moments I was infinite, I was everything, I was his

It’s the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone all at the same time. And it's hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It’s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, and when you want to move on, but you're stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you can't decide what you want. When you have so many things to say, but you don't know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them farther and farther away. It’s so hard to think back to how things used to be and look at it now and realize that things are different, and they may never be the same. You tell yourself it's not worth it, but if it really didn't matter, you wouldn't spend so much time thinking about it.

How do you look at her and keep your space?
How do you stand there like everything’s okay?
How do you not shake at every word she says?
How do you go right on by her instead?
Everyday she sees you standing there with her.
Everyday she witnesses what you and her were.

It’s funny how
when you finally get over someone,
you start seeing them
in a whole new perspective.
It’s like you're looking at them
through the eyes of your best friend,
and you realize, he's nothing special.
He’s just another ordinary boy.

You can erase someone from your mind.
Getting them out of your heart is another story.
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

Do me a favor.
Watch what you say around me.
Maybe you're too blind to see it.
But I’m still in love with you.
But don't worry about me.
You should be worrying.
'Cause as far as i can see.
You're Still A Jerk.

And that's when I'll discover that revenge is sweet,
as I sit there applauding from a front-row seat
when somebody breaks your heart
like you, like you broke mine.

Without you, nothing good feels as good.
Its like I'm missing some happy part of me.
-Coach Carter

You started telling me all about her
and for the first time I didn’t care that
you weren't talking about me and
I finally realized I’m over you

You're single. Make the best of it.
It doesn't mean your not good enough for anyone,
It means no one is good enough for you.

Okay so let me get this straight
you were leading me on
keeping me waiting for something
that wasn’t there
letting me get my hopes up for you
acting liked you cared
and allowing me to start liking you
all because you didn’t wanna hurt me...?

I'm happy now.
I'm not holding on to false hope that
we'll be together again. I'm not fooling myself anymore.
And it just feels so good that I can tell myself the truth.
I've never needed you. In fact, I'm better off.

a stranger stabs you in the front.
a friend stabs you in the back.
a boyfriend stabs you in the heart.
a best friend pokes you with a straw.

Well, here's my heart and feelings, spilled out to you upon this piece of paper. Do you want to know what's really on my mind? The truth of the matter is I can't get you out of my head. Whenever I think 'happy' I think of you. There is just something you have that can brighten up my day in an instant; you have this way of making me laugh when I don't even feel like smiling. She may tell you about how much she likes you, but she doesn't have anything on me. Yeah, she might be braver than me, probably more fun to be around sometimes, & is more blunt than me, but that's because shes not afraid of you like I am. You make me nervous, not in a bad way, but I have this unbearable fear of rejection. I don't want things to be awkward around you if you end up liking someone else more than me; I want that friendship we have to stay with us no matter what, & she's not afraid of that. She may claim to have had her heart ripped out at one point or another, what girl hasn't? But she doesn't really know what I have been through in the past. I don't want to be the "overly obsessive, drama filled, cant-stop-staring" kind of girl to you. I want to be the "beautiful-but-doesn't-know-it, I-love-her-so-much" kind of girl. So maybe I don't tell you just exactly how I feel because I'm afraid you may think I'm trying to move too fast, or maybe I'm afraid to tell you because I love you so much that it might just break me in two if you say you just don't like me that way. Nonetheless, I know you're not going to wait on me. She's already told me that I need to figure out what the hell I'm doing because shes not the 'patient' type, but I promise not to keep you waiting forever. If you promise to be sure about your feelings & take a look around for a minute, you might just find that the best thing that has ever happened to you is one of your best friends, laughing with you every day, all day long, from day one.

When you look in his eyes & he`s looking back at yours,
everything feels not quite normal, because you feel stronger
& weaker at the same time. You feel excited & at the same
time, terrified. The truth is, you don`t know what you feel;
except you know what kind of person you want to be. It's
as if you reached the unreachable & you weren`t ready for it.
- SpiderMan 2

Loving you isn`t really something I should do.
Shouldn't wanna spend my time with you.
That I should try to be strong.
But baby, you're the Right kind Of Wrong.

And it seems to be that
All along, the problem was,
I cared more about you,
Than you cared about me.

As soon as this new guy comes into my life..
im going to do exactly what you did to me.
Dangle him right infront of your face
and make you wish you were him

i was just second best
a back-up plan
an after thought...

Think of me when we're together
But you lie when we're apart
How could you ever do this to me
Stomped the love out of my heart

sooner or later we'll be looking
back on everything and we'll laugh
like we knew what was happening
all along and someday we might
listen to what people have to say
but for now on, we'll make it by
learning the hard way.

ove is when someone hurts you and you get so mad
but you don't yell at them because you know
it would hurt their feelings.
There's always that one person
that no matter what they do to you,
you just can't let them go.

In that moment, I felt my heart break. & I thought,
''I can’t live without you. I don’t want to live without you''
& then it slowly crept into my mind that no matter how bad
I wanted or needed you, it wouldn’t matter. Somehow,
& very painfully I was sure, my life would continue.
With or without you. Right?

she loves her mama's lemonade, hates the
sound that goodbyes make. she prays one
day she'll find someone to need her. she
swears that there's no difference between
the lies and compliments. it's all the same
if everybody leaves her.

and she'll get over you, just give her time.
she'll get over you, because she has too.
Eventually, she'll run out of tears.
she can't live like this, she can't.

Now I realize, I don't mean anything to you.
I've got to remind myself,
i'm the last thing on your mind.

Don't try to be cute with me,
'cause I know you hate yourself.
And you'd end your stupid life now
but you're too spineless

I have yet to figure out how to be completely happy,
because I'm not. I guess in time I will be happy,
but right now it's really hard to deal with
what I have to try to deal with.

He said "Some people believe everything happens for a reason. And some people, well don`t". She said "Its not that i believe everything happens for a reason, its just that i think that somethings are meant to be broken. Imperfect. Chaotic. Its the universes way of providing contrast, you know?
There have to be a few holes in the road. Its how life is.

I'm not like the rest who are asking for a second chance. All I'm asking for is one chance to prove we belong in each others arms. I don't need a second chance to fix mistakes; just one is enough.

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone,
I'd stand up and punch them out.
Cause they're all wrong.
I know better.
Cause you said forever.

If I had just one friend left,
I'd want it to be you <3

Maybe she sees forgiveness in the sunrise,
& maybe she sees hope in the moonlight,
& maybe she sees love in other boy's beds,
because everyone knows no one
has ever stayed by her side

Was it untrue what we promised each other?

If you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it.
If you don't ask, the answer is always no. If you don't
step forward, you're always in the same place.

Is it still me that makes you sweat?
Am I who you think about in bed?
...When the lights are dim and your heart is
racing as your fingers touch your skin.

You see me as the girl you used to love
I see you as the boy I always will.

If someone breaks your heart, just punch them in the face. Oh sure, it seems obvious now, but you'd be amazed at how many people don't think of it when it's relevent. Seriously, just punch them in the face and go get some ice cream.

He misses you? Good, he should. You're sexy, pretty, fun, outgoing, and fun to be around. Guys that haven't met you yet miss you. But don't get back together with him, because somewhere out there is a guy searching really hard for you. He's the one that deserves someone amazing like you. Let him have it and not the asshole that left you.

sorry it took so long. so i started to number this one.but then i stopped

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1. A man realized he wanted his love back.
Not wanting to get hurt, the girl said 'no.'
The man cried to God & asked,
'If this is meant to be, why did I lose her?'
God replied, 'My child, you didn`t lose her,
you let her go."

2.She's a human traffic accident, and everybody's slowing down to look at the wreckage. -grey's anatomy

3.don't say that. don't say that it didn't mean anything.
listen to me, if you've thought about her everyday
or if you memorized her laugh then at one point
she must've meant something to you.

4. it seems you dissapeared
even though you're not that far away
please tell me its not true
i didnt mean that much to you?

5. & it hurts so much
to see you move on so quickly
have you promised
her forever yet?

6. things between us are complicated.
i think thats the way we like it,
i think thats why we cant ever let eachother go.

7. i just wanted you to know,
that i can't remember life before i met you.

8. loves does not begin and end
the way we seem to think it does.
love is a battle, love is a war.
love is growing up.

9. she loves you, i can tell.
just look into her eyes, it`s there.
a love so strong it bleeds through the skin,
when you`re around ; she glows.

10. Contrary to what the cynics say,
Distance is not for the fearful. It's for the bold.
It's for the those willing to spend a lot of time alone
In exchange for a little time with the one they love.
It's for the those, knowing a good thing when they see it.
Even if they don't see it nearly enough.

11. A gorgeous face upon a flawless body;
I'm not even close to second best.

12. you haven't changed.
still the same old boy
lying your way into her pants.
but she keeps running back everytime.

i'm not going to stress over you anymore. it isn't
worth it. I tried to work something out, but you
just ignored it. i'm not trying to say I don't want
you because i definitely do. all i'm saying is,
i'm done chasing after you

she doesn't know what she wants anymore,
all she knows is who she wants, and that's
the boy who doesn't want her back

I flip open my cellphone & stare at the keypad. I want to hear his voice so badly, to be connected to him, to ask him why and how & what I can do to make it better. But you can't force someone to love you.

I have no illusions about love anymore.
It came, it went, it left casualties, or it didn't.
People weren't meant to be together forever.
Regardless of what the songs say.

I almost can't believe I'm going to make myself vulnerable to him again.
But what is love but the most extreme and exquisite from of risk perception?
I know that relationships don't last.
And yet, with him, the risk of not being with him,
Is much worse than any other hurt I can imagine.

The thing about you is you're fun, you make me laugh, & you make me feel more alive. Okay, you make me a little crazy sometimes, but there are these moments in my mind, crystal-clear images of you and me & how we fit together, and it all makes such perfect sense, & I know what I want; I want more time with you.

Tell me why I can't be there where you are;
there's something missing in my heart.

I hate that I love you. Loving you made me waste a year of my life. Loving you made me be passionate about nothing but you. Loving you made me take risks I never would have otherwise. Loving you made me give it up to you. Loving you made me neglect my family & my best friends. Loving you made me turn out bitter and hopeless. Loving you made me hate myself for being dumped by you. Loving you made me deluded, irrational, inconsiderate, and a liar. And because I love you, you're always going to haunt me.

its not that im scared of what I feel im scared of what you dont

the more I think about him, the more I realize
how much time I spent waiting for him to change-
waiting for him to realize that no time is better
than now. he just wasn't ready to grow up.

i stared at myself, and at how i was back then.
i was looking for any difference,
i was looking for some visible proof of what had happened to me

i thought about that night,
and how, finally, it seemed like things might be getting back to normal.

and while she wasn't always cheerful and perky,
maybe she actually never had been in the first place.
maybe that, like so much else, i had only imagioned or assumed.
still, i had trouble trusting that things were getting better.
as hopeful as i wanted to be, i always felt like i was holding my breath.
it was like i wasn't sure it would last.
and even when it did, the fact that what had happened,
had came on so suddenly, with no beginning or true end,
made it seem that much more likely to reappear in the same fashion.
i always used to feel like it'd take only one bad event, one disappiontment,
for it to all come back.
maybe i still felt that way.

You ended it with let's be friends. You said we would talk and hang out. I said it wouldn't work; you persisted. Now you can't look me in the eye. Tell me once again, are you living up to what you say?

And he was my kiss-in-the-rain,
my dance-with-no-music guy.
He was my kiss-on-the-forehead,
I-love-you, sweet-dreams-goodnight.
He was the never-want-to-be-without-you
kind of thing; I was living the dream
every girl wants to live.
I couldn't tell you why we are best friends,
because you wouldn't understand.
The explanation is full of too many
inside jokes & made up words;
it's full of too much care & too many tears,
too many laughs & too many blonde moments.
I don't think I will ever be able to give you
a better reason, except she's always been there.